The Dark Side of Clean Eating

I still remember it like it was yesterday. It was one year ago when my girlfriend and I were going to a party with some friends.

Everybody was going to is drinking, eating the right foods, and having a great time. But not me. I had fitness goals. I wasn’t even overweight when I started a few years prior. But now I was eating clean, working hard in the gym, and it felt amazing.

I was growing more confident with my job, with my friendships, with everything in life. I became a better version of myself, just like I wanted. I thought, this is it, this is what my life has been missing.

This was more important than anything. Or so I thought.

Preparing for that party, little did I know it would be a night that would forever change my life. I decided ahead of time I wasn’t going to drink. I wasn’t going to stray from my diet. I picked up my chicken and broccoli in a glass container and went off to the party. And really, my friends were supportive. They even brought veggies to blend and make me a green smoothie.

At first, I was happy that I wasn’t that guy who didn’t live their life because of fitness goals. That is until the party got started. There I sat watching as everyone laughed and had a great time. I was silently judging them for not caring about their body the way I did. I was better than them; I managed more about what matters in life.

Or so I told myself. Honestly, it wasn’t even health that I cared about; I just wanted a better body. Deep down, I was jealous of my friends, and I knew it. In reality, I had it backward. I was missing out on what matters most in life and didn’t even realize it until that night was over.

Self-development, as a whole, should be a good thing. There’s nothing wrong with trying to get in better shape. If you want to be the best version of yourself, you need to take care of your health. So eating clean and avoiding temptation makes sense on the surface. Besides, wanting to change yourself because you’re unhappy is powerful. Hell, you won’t change unless you’re dissatisfied with…

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